Happy Interlude

At Christmas this year we all sat around and talked about what 2006 would mean to us; what our hopes, expectations and fears would be for the coming year. I said that I just wanted to 'be' for a while. At that stage 2005 had brought so much turmoil and exertion on my behalf that I was tired. I wanted to sit back and take it easy, let it all sink in. Well that lasted all of 4 months and before you knew it I was back to making life changing decisions, over-analysing my life and my choices. So August 2006 finds me at the conclusion of another of these periods. I have spent the last 2 or 3 months pushing and probing to see what it is that really makes me tick; what gets me up in the morning and what would make an acceptable achievement for me in the next few months and years. The difference is that this time I have managed to reach a sort of calm acceptance and confidence in my choice that I don't remember feeling before. I am in a good place right now. I want to mark this event as something special. I want to remember in years to come that in August 2006 I was happy with who I am and where I am and where I'm going. Not that I'm complacent. I don't expect to stay here or to stop moving or seeking but just right now, for this interlude, I'm happy.